Thursday, May 30, 2013

Just one week until I squeeze his head off

Right now I am surrounded by half a dozen fluffy pillows on my all white bed, wearing my husband's favorite t-shirt and over-sized "Beats" headphones that he left behind, zoning in and out of reality as I listen to my Justin Timberlake/Michael Jackson mix and feeling content.

Ahhh, yes. This is my happy place.

I have exactly one week until I get to see Chris again. By that time it will have been two months. TWO MONTHS since I have seen that face. I can't believe I am still alive at this point. Yes, I am proudly codependent. In a good way. I can't function without his goofy laugh.

So, the countdown is on. It. is. on. Seven days until I fly to Texas to watch that guy graduate from basic training. It will be a sweet, sweet reunion. Until then, I will be co-hosting (with my sisters) my extended family's annual reunion down here in Arizona for the first time. That will keep me preeeetty busy until my countdown is complete. Happy 'bout it.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Peachy California

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Well, it happened. I am officially hooked on Summer and every sun-shiny thing that comes along with it. This past weekend spent in San Diego is to blame. A long road trip with all of my sisters & cute nieces, ice cream, heart shaped sunnies, dog beach afternoons, beautiful weather, dinner with my in-laws, and a whole weekend full of "Old California" themed wedding festivities! The only thing that might have made the weekend better would be some sleep. But hotel rooms with dogs and nieces didn't exactly allow that. No matter, it was excellent regardless. 

My step-sister, Rhyll, wed her love in the San Diego temple. Their entire wedding day was a complete vision of perfection. With each wedding I attend I take it upon myself to score each element as if I am on the show Four Weddings. I can't help planner side just goes there. Well, let me tell you...this wedding would have scored a 10. First place. hands down. The pictures hardly paint a picture of the beauty of the event. My favorite elements were the cookies bar (best idea ever), the floral arrangements and the dance party (the music was on point). I would now like to do my whole wedding all over again. I just can't get enough of an event that sticks to the theme down to every last detail. The abundance of love in the air doesn't hurt either. 

Good bye, California. I will miss you until next month. 

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

I don't love the word "selfie"

I prom promise that I am not a regular "selfie" taker. Cross my fingers, hope to die serious. So now that we are friends and you believe me...I am going to post a selfie. And a terrible quality, terrible lighting, in-the-kitchen selfie at that. But I got extensions put in today. Hair extensions. Real human hair just clamped right onto my thin gremlin hair. I feel good about the pump up in volume. Let's just go ahead and count on my fabulous new heavenly cloud pillow to ensure I don't wake up with an extensions headache in the morn. 
I would really prefer to wake up and just feel thankful that it's one day closer to the day I get to see my husband, instead of waking up and plotting the removal of my head from my body. 

And there we have it. Now I don't have a secret to hide. The fullness of this hair is as real as the fullness of Nicki Minaj's booty. Yeah, did you know she has implants? She does. In her butt. I highly recommend googling before and after pics. You're welcome. 

Sunday, May 19, 2013

Being a wife.

So, listen. I've been learning how to be a wife for 4 1/2 years. It's one of those things you can't really know how exactly to do it until you actually start doing it. I've learned that sometimes it's hard work, being a "good" wife. But I think that I might possibly be starting to get the hang of it...maybe even kind of getting good at it...maybe...kind of...a little bit. I'm about 96% sure that my husband would agree. The questionable 4% would be based on my lack of cooking skills. Maybe that should really count for like 20%, who knows? I, would not. No cooking or thinking about cooking happening over here. I try to make up for it with things like being in tune with my husband's needs, noticing when his biceps look "swoll", asking questions about sports related things I know he wants to talk about, you know...the important things (i joke).

While Chris is in BMT (basic military training) he only gets to call me once a week for a strict 15 minutes. And I have no idea when that one phone call will be. I do not like this. I do not like this AT ALL. I think it's rude, actually. Some people have wives (or mothers!) that would like to know they are alive on a regular basis. Suddenly I feel like I am no longer a wife. It's the weirdest thing. The almost no contact thing makes it very different from just physically being away from your spouse. It changes everything. We've talked a total of one hour in the past month! Before he left we would talk for an hour just during my lunch break from work every day. Needless to say, this has been a huge adjustment for us.

For the past 5 years my relationship with Chris has been my top priority in life. He comes before anything. And that is still true BUT... now we're living 2 separate lives. I don't even know what he's doing on a daily basis. And he doesn't know what I'm doing. Suddenly I just have to worry about myself and he about himself. The experience is not one I ever thought I would have. Certainly not four years into marriage (that's just how the timing worked out). And, while its been hard, it has taught us so much already. We are reminded what a little bit of sacrifice can do for a person and a relationship. We realize that we should never take anything for granted. ever. And we have learned that putting effort into our own personal growth is just as important as putting effort into our growth as a couple.

When Chris first brought up joining the military he had a great job that he loved at Yelp! But he was feeling the urge to serve and do something bigger than himself.  He also felt that he had some things to learn in order to become the man he ultimately wants to be. He didn't know what it was but he knew that joining the military was what would get him there. And now he sees that the sacrifices required to do this (including changing careers and leaving his family), is what will end up teaching him the most. It already has. Oddly enough, he feels he has become a better husband. And I am hoping it helps me become a better wife. About 4 more months until I will know for sure. I hope it goes by quickly...

(p.s. Sundays are deep thinking days. My head would appreciate a Diet Coke about now. )

Thursday, May 16, 2013

This totally speaks to me, this saying. I think you can take this a couple of different ways. The way that I take it at this moment in time is...if you are unhappy with how things are going...then change it. 

So, that is just what I decided to do. I am all about inflicting change and taking risks if you believe it will better your situation. After all, a wise man once said...Y.O.L.O. (no, I'm not serious about that).

Anywho. I decided to leave my job of 2 years. I gave a 3 week notice to allow plenty of time for the company to find a replacement. Let's be honest...they can never really replace me. And exactly one month from the day that Chris left, was my last day of work. That was last week. And this week, I am feeling like that is one of the best decisions I have ever made. It was time to move on. I just needed something to push me over the edge. 

Kind of exciting to realize that everyone has the power to create their ideal life. You just have to set your priorities and make things happen. And that's what it's all about. 

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Some news.

I have a husband. A real life best friend. I often/always refer to him as "Trabe". One day I may explain myself on that one.

So, this best friend thing. We spend as much time together as we can. We make up new words daily. He can never be mad at me because he laughs too easily. And he makes me laugh constantly. We are home bodies to the best degree. We eat a lot of dark chocolate covered acai berries. He loves working out. And I love having good intentions to work out. We've built a unique life together. And we love it.

A new development happened in our lives recently. Chris joined the Military. The U.S. Military. The Air National Guard to be branch specific. We made this giant decision together months ago and it is now impacting our lives hugely. I never in a million years thought or planned that this would be a part of our plan. But now it is. And now he is gone. My best friend. In Texas for basic military training/tech training. For 5+ months. Almost no communication for the first 2. Not a fan of that part.

I definitely do not intend to make this sound negative. The whole story of how it came about is actually pretty  grool {great, cool. Mean girls...anyone?}. I will share that soon enough. But this is a brand new experience that I just don't know what to do with. There will be a lot of learning on both of our parts in the upcoming months. That's for sure.

All I know right now is that I respect the military and it's people and it's purpose. And I am so incredibly proud to have a husband that is wholeheartedly serving his country for all the right reasons.

It is absolutely insane how much can change in such a short time. This recent shake-up-change-up to our life has inspired a handful of other big in the works.

This is going to be a big year for us. Like, colossal.